Friday, July 2, 2010

Where is Me

I have post partum depression. There. I said it...or typed it...whatever. Have you ever been in an airplane when it is cloudy out and you can't see anything except for every now and then when you get a peek at the sun or a glimpse of the land below. Thats kind of what I feel like. All.The.Time. Like my mind is so cloudy and I can see myself once in awhile but for the most part I dont know where I am. It reminds me of the Dr. Seuss book "Many Colored Days" "then comes a mixed up day and WHAM I don't know who or what I am....But it all turns out ok you see and I go back to just being Me." I am ready to go back to just being me.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010


Of favoritism. Of families who claim to be family oriented and then leave family out. Of individuals who claim to follow a set of principles and yet have actions that are so contradictory. I'm tired of trying to fit into this world because I truly do love and respect family and being rejected or mistreated because they believe I do not fit a certain set of ideals. Tired of people assuming I do not fit these ideals of theirs when they have no clue who I am or what I stand for. The world is too hypocritical for me sometimes and I am ready to create my own.