Monday, August 1, 2011

We have come so far.

I love the way she smiles. And the way my heart pitter-patters when she laughs. I love the way her words come out and the excitement in her eyes when I understand what she is saying. My heart bounds with joy when she says momma. How did I live my life without her?

Now the other one, she drives me crazy. She makes me think and be creative and she challenges me to be more than I am. She doesn't understand no and often I find myself reverting to strange anecdotes (sp?) to make her see that what she is requesting. (ex: what do you want me to do? We are in the middle of nowhere, there is no water! Do you want me to pee in a cup and let you drink it?? ex 2: You are hungry, I have nothing. I understand you are hungry but I cannot feed you right this second. I see some cows, do you want me to pull over so you can knaw on some cow??) As crazy as she drives me, I need her. I need her like a thunderstorm needs thunder, I need her like a ladybug needs spots. This little girl, she is exactly like me.

And him, O him. How do explain something that almost became nothing and yet turned into everything? I think wow, I almost gave this all up. I know that the path we went down is what got us to here, and that we would be nothing without that bit of everything. Now though, now he is my heartbeat. And I miss him every second he is away. I wonder if he thinks about me as much as I think about him. I wonder if he wishes his arms were around me every second. I wish they were.

My family, this right here, it is everything. I am so rich! I am wealthier than Bill Gates. I soar higher than the space shuttle. I have everything I need to survive right here in my little home. The love of my Heavenly Father, two beautiful little girls, and one heck of a husband.

1 comment:

Megs said...

I love you - you are beyond great :)